[ Singles & Dating ] Open Question : What do you think of my first loves answer? What do you think will happen?
Ok so I met her in August of last year and we dated from September through march. On December first I was diagnosed with anxiety/ panic disorder and went on pills and saw people that I could speak with to help me through the tough times. And i recently learned i have ptsd symptoms that my gf doesnt know about .My gf and i were first love for both of us and couldn't have been better to me she was there for everything until about march/April when I forced her to break up with me bc we got into a big fight and I told her it was over it was all a misunderstanding bc of a misread and interpreted text message. She said she wanted to work it out and i did too i love her then we got into another big fight and it was over for good. After the first big fight we decided to not talk and see how things go but it didnt work wed both text and call eachother which made it worse.I called her a month later and she said she didn't want anything to do with me and then stayed on the phone with me for an hour and talked. A month then passed and I wrote her a letter praising everything she did for me and explained to her everything I went through from square one since it was so hard to at the time bc I was on so many pills and just didn't no what was going on and i asked her to be friends something I declined when we first broke up i also said i take full responsibilty of my actions And this was her response to the letter in which I poured my heart out.
You want to know what went wrong? Let my refresh your memory a bit. I was the one who took your bs. I was the one who actually cared about you. I was the One who stuck around even when everyone told me to leave. I was the one who stood up for you. I was the one who loved you when you gave me every reason not tooLastly, I was the one who was there for you when no one else was. I realize she is still mad and idk if her showing this much emotion is a good or bad thing? I then waited a couple weeks and sent her an email basically saying yes or no to being in my life and she told me she asked to be friend and YOU said no and how she stills wants nothing to do with me. I then talked to her mom on the phone her mom wanted to speak with me and she said what a great man it takes to call her (mother) and I explained everything and she kept saying oh sweetie and oh darling she felt bad and really understoof what had happened to Me bc she knows people who suffered from the same thing. She said her daughter doesnt hate me and still cares about me but just can't understand everything right now it's too much the mom thinks we should learn from this which i plan on doing either with or without her. My ex thinks blaming our fallout on the medicine and what I went through isn't right she doesn't get it and she thinks i think she is a terrible person bc of it idk why i know she is stilll really mad even a couple months later Her mom said with time, she will understand but not right now se thinks the best thing for the both of us right now is time away from one another even tho its been 4 months. I just learned that her answer to my letter was a quote that an be foud all over the Internet so she didnt put any thought into it. What should I do?
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